Four beads on a bracelet

Today begins lent. Or, well, I guess it was yesterday. But for me it's today. It was hard deciding what I needed to give up. I wanted something big enough to really impact my day to day routine. So I decided that I have two main issues that need to be addressed. 1.) I need to be present to the people around me. When I'm in the room, that's where my focus is. I give my all to whatever I am doing at the moment. 2.) I need to be less concerned with how other people see me. I need to let go of this insecurity that kills me. Hopefully this will lead to me being less judgmental as well. But I'm starting with my insecurity.
So, I'm giving up two things: TV and fashion.

Here's why: TV (particularly LOST) is addictive. I use it to comfort myself when I'm down, and it distracts me from my day to day life. After an episode all I want to do is watch another one. I have a LOST addiction. I'll admit it. I'm a LOST addict. (haha, pun, you get it "lost addict". Muwhahah) I want to be more present, so I'm taking away the major distraction. Sometimes I stay up to 2:00 in the morning watching LOST. How is that healthy? And of course, the next day I want to watch even more and I obsessively think about LOST all day. So I'm going to be more present.
I'm giving up fashion because of my image. I don't need to be concerned how I look to other people. I don't need to be affirmed that I'm a good person or that people like me. And most of all I don't need to be concerned with how sexy I am, because this is not the time for me. God will fill all holes that need to be filled, so I'm giving up fashion, giving up trying to fill them with something less than God.

Here's the rules.
1.) No Hulu.
2.) No shows or movies on youtube.
3.) If someone else initiates watching a movie or turning on the TV, movies are okay. It's best to leave if the TV's on. Use own discretion.
4.)For fashion, I'm only allowed to wear sweatshirts, t-shirts, or athletic sweaters.
5.) I will not use make-up, perfume, jewelry, or any other item to make myself feel more beautiful.
6.) I will avoid mirrors as much as possible. I know mirrors are everywhere, so "no mirrors" is not a hard, fast rule. It's guidelines.
7.) I will wear my bracelet at all times.

The bracelet is one that I made at Tutoring a long time ago. It has four beads. Two together and one on each side. The two together represent the two things I'm giving up. The two on the ends represent what I'm hoping to accomplish.

This is my Lent.
Megan